Here's to a great day and a great year!
Thursday, June 28, 2012
It Was 3 Years Ago Today...
...I said hello to another love of my life - Lucas. He received his big present from Mommy and Daddy this morning and didn't stop playing until it was time to go to daycare.
Here's to a great day and a great year!
Here's to a great day and a great year!
Thursday, June 21, 2012
The Difference A Year Can Make
It crept up on me.
I was so busy that I lost all track of time.
But in a quiet moment I remembered.
It's been a year since we found out we were expecting. It was this honeymoon period where we dreamed, debated names and taught Lucas how to say big brother. It would still be another week of bliss before the warning signs that the end of our joy was near.
This is an anniversary that no parent should ever have to mark, regardless of where in the pregnancy (or life for that matter) that one has lost a child. I know everyone says it's common, and I had friends tell me the same, but it was little solace. For us, this was our baby.
With it comes another anniversary of sorts. The one where I left the traditional working world to take a risk on my own. I have a friend Kat that I follow on Twitter @bumpandhustle, who called post-pregnancy loss a "new normal" kind of life. What came before will never be again. So what better time to re-invent myself and my career. My life was in a state of emotional upheaval as it was, and I needed to press the reset button. And I did that in spades.
New business/career.
New house.
And most importantly, new perspective.
When I catch up with friends, many comment on how settled I appear. I like to use the word content. Sometimes life sucks, but sometimes, life can be awfully good.
I find peace in what I have. I am lucky to have it.
I am lucky that it's been a year on my own, building my business, and I've managed to pay the bills, meet some amazing people and enjoy every second.
I am lucky to have a healthy and happy family, wonderful friends and a lovely and comfortable home.
I am lucky to have come full circle in a year, experiencing joy out of what I already have without putting pressure on finding happiness in what I do not have.
I am blessed.
I was so busy that I lost all track of time.
But in a quiet moment I remembered.
It's been a year since we found out we were expecting. It was this honeymoon period where we dreamed, debated names and taught Lucas how to say big brother. It would still be another week of bliss before the warning signs that the end of our joy was near.
This is an anniversary that no parent should ever have to mark, regardless of where in the pregnancy (or life for that matter) that one has lost a child. I know everyone says it's common, and I had friends tell me the same, but it was little solace. For us, this was our baby.
With it comes another anniversary of sorts. The one where I left the traditional working world to take a risk on my own. I have a friend Kat that I follow on Twitter @bumpandhustle, who called post-pregnancy loss a "new normal" kind of life. What came before will never be again. So what better time to re-invent myself and my career. My life was in a state of emotional upheaval as it was, and I needed to press the reset button. And I did that in spades.
New business/career.
New house.
And most importantly, new perspective.
When I catch up with friends, many comment on how settled I appear. I like to use the word content. Sometimes life sucks, but sometimes, life can be awfully good.
I find peace in what I have. I am lucky to have it.
I am lucky that it's been a year on my own, building my business, and I've managed to pay the bills, meet some amazing people and enjoy every second.
I am lucky to have a healthy and happy family, wonderful friends and a lovely and comfortable home.
I am lucky to have come full circle in a year, experiencing joy out of what I already have without putting pressure on finding happiness in what I do not have.
I am blessed.
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